All that is inside me Screams..

There is something about the thought of leading a congregation in what the Lord wants that is daunting.

It can leave a person feeling empty inside and wondering if they are where they need to be in order to deliver a message.

People on the outside say pray, have faith, ask for grace.  God's grace is sufficient.  Sure God's grace is sufficient.  But what about the cheap grace that Paul warns us of in Romans.  What about the passage in James that talks about knowing what to do and then not doing it is evil.  What if the person isn't doing what God wants of them and in consequence isn't near enough to God to hear what it is that He wants in Him?

People don't think about that. People think that if you are at the point where you are willing to stand up and talk about your faith, that you have everything together.  What I don't think the majority of "Christians" know, is that people in ministry struggle with sin just as much as they do.  People in ministry might even struggle more, because Satan would rather see them fail then one of the sheep.  Cause if you take out the shepherd, then you have free reign on the sheep.  Crazy thought right?

What needs to be realized is that all Christians are the same.  All sin is weighed the same.  Which is really crazy if you think about it.  However, that means if I'm dealing with a sin of lust and you are dealing with a sin of forgetfulness, they are the same.  I'm not sinning more.  Sin is sin and it needs to be dealt with.  

As Christians we are all called to the same mission.  Pastors don't have a "higher" calling.  We are all called to actively advance the gospel in every shape and form.  Some are called to do that through leading a group of Christians others through being a light in the work place.  But, if you are not holding up to your end of the bargain, well this is where that verse in James comes in, it's pure evil, cause you know what you are supposed to be doing, but you aren't doing it.

We are supposed to be growing continually closer to Christ.  We are supposed to be in the world and not of it.  Instead we worry about what car we are going to purchase next, or where we are eating after church.  If we are close enough to Christ, we will know the answer to both of those questions.  God will be so present in our lives that we will know exactly what is of Him and what isn't.

The beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

So within the last week I've been able to see Bluetree, Mike Keahbone, Charlie Hall, and Robbie Seay Band.
Seeing all of these fellow seekers brought out alot of great things for me.  I believe though that the coolest of all of these things was what came out of the time of reflection that I had.

This was thinking about the concept of grace.  Grace is something that I really don't know if any human can truly grasp the fullness of grace.  As humans showing grace and mercy isn't something that really seems to come natural to us, we tend to lean more on the showing "discipline."  We would rather people see a consequence for their action than to see mercy and grace overwhelm their transgressions.

This is where the concept of Christ and His love comes in and intercedes.  This is the part that as humans I believe we have a hard time grasping. Mainly this is an issue for us, because we ourselves can't grasp fully forgetting about wrongs a person has caused towards us or someone else, and then actually allowing them a full blown second chance.

All of this is general statements though, I'm sure people out there fully grasp grace, but I for one can't really get it, and the thing is I have been covered with grace just as much as anyone else.  The amount of grace that I have in my life baffles me, and that I suppose is the part that I don't grasp about it, the unconditional grace.  Even though I am a sinner, I am covered by grace, regardless of if it is a sin that happened four years ago, or one that will happen in four months.

I feel like I have rambled this entire time, anyway here is the video for where the title has come from: